Posted by Suplee_Mental at 18.104.22.168 on January 17, 2004 at 10:01:31:
How do you know if you are stupid?
Like, I could never create movies or art, I could never write, because I have no way of knowing if everyone is thinking I am an incompetant moron.
And it's not just performance. I don't know if I'd recognize my twin if I came across him in the street. I have no confidence that my perception of my physical self is accurate. I don't know how I sound when I talk, I don't know how other people percieve me at all.
and I actually prefer to be ignorant in may ways. I guess I fear that if I see the truth it will make me suicidal. literally.
And I see folks like Kevin who are putting their art and ideas out there, on the line, because they seemingly believe in their selves.
do I not believe in myself because there is nothing to believe in?
does anyone else struggle with this?
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