Posted by Gabe S. at netcache-1114.public.svc.webtv.net on March 07, 2002 at 13:15:18:
Brodie(Andrew),
If you're still on I need to tell ya' something. I realize how you feel, more than you know. I was to the point where I sat on my bed w/ a revolver to my head- cocked and finger on the trigger. Just as I pulled the trigger there was a click- The chamber was empty.
Call me a little bitch if you will but I broke down in to tears. Just then I got a call from my father (who I hadn't heard from in 4 years) telling me how much he cared about me, etc - I'm still a little hazy as to why I was going to end it all, it was a culmination of a a lot of reasons. Long story short, I'm really glad things didn't work out. I'm now a film student, w/ a guaranteed job at Universal as soon as I get out.
I know you're going to do what you think you have to do but my thoughts are that it's a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem. Take that in to concideration-
Take Care